french test tmr and i have nothing french related in my brain
screwed up

but am starting to settle down

shall start studying on wednesday
need to get a good night's sleep in first

and stop coming online

and they say SHINee's gonna comeback in april
and that hello baby will end this week
T-T
why comeback during my busiest and most broke month
why end hello baby when onew hasn't even gotten close to the baby

sighs
exams>SHINee
much as i hate it
still contemplating s/u-ing french
will wait till tmr's test is over to decide
have till this friday
how i wish we have nus's s/u system
then i wldn't have to fret abt it now
and it'll be so easy to decide whether to s/u or not

feeling the hate today

today's the first time that i really felt like ponning school
even with tutorial
i just didn't want to go

sighs

the bus i was on broke down
before that, it had rammed it's mirror on another bus, leaving a big scratch on the other bus
made me later than i already was
SICK

I WILL NOT HAVE A FIVE DAY WEEK NEXT SEM
i don't care how i'm gonna do it
i'm just gonna make sure that it's no more than four days per week
it's just friggin tiring to wake up so early and drag myself all the way to the godknowswhere to stone in classrooms
not worth it

I hate my group mates in my only project this sem
the way they think totally clashes with mine
they nitpick at things, and the thing is, the way they change stuff/the suggestions that they make is totally ridiculous/not needed
and the subject they chose is utter bullshit
and the points they come up with is even more bullshit
it's so bull that i've decided to just remain quiet
i did talk in the beginning, but later on it just became pointless to
fuck it i hope that it ain't screwed up

EXAMS ARE COMING SHIT !!!
i have a mountain of readings to do
sians
and i'm definitely gonna s/u french coz i did too badly in the quiz (15% of total marks)
and i know that i'm not gonna do well for the oral portion too
so screw it
gonna concentrate on my core mods which is die die must do well one
AND i have 3 presentations coming up
fuck it i hate talking infront of the class
with the teacher asking questions i'd prolly not even understand to begin with much less answer them

it's about a little more than one month to my freedom on 30th April

i hope all goes well

went popular today

and saw SHINee's Y.O.U mini album on the charts





IT'S #1 !!!!!



yay !!!!!

LOL

i don't believe they never reach 100,000 albums sold

(in singapore they sell how many for the events already -__-"")

so if they have that shitty contract, at least they'd be able to earn a little money right ???



need to start studying

especially french

it's like, might as well s/u it already

can't make it lol

just too lazy this sem

already dreaming about spring break

can't wait for this to be over

can't wait for holidays
i'd go to work asap
and earn as much as i can
so that i can buy the stuff that i want

fujifilm instax (cheki brown)
macbook pro
diving lessons

and of course
since SHINee is prolly gonna make a comeback in Apr/May/June
(hopefully in June though. alot of pple are saying that's it's in apr, but they just ended their y.o.u promo, plus onew's musical is during april, and if they comeback in april i think he'll just die. he's recent appearances show him looking tired out, poor thing)

i need to prepare the dough to buy all the merchandise that will come and to buy the album (finally not a mini album but a legit full length one)
omg their poster(s), the repackaged album (staple of sm albums), the random stuff that comes along
O___O
saw their stickers today (ezlink card size)
but i curbed my temptation
coz it's all five members, and i only want onew's (and maybe key's)
anyways i need to save the money to buy stuff from their next comeback LOL

oh yeah and i'd need to prepare money to pay for the school fees for the next school year
wanna get a perm weekend job
so that even when school opens i'd still have a job
it's horrid when every month you see the money going out of your account and nothing goes in
dwindling bit by bit
i want as least some thing to come in

sighs
gotta work hard when you're poor, unmotivated, untalented and lazy
LOL

sleepy day

today is one of those days where time just seems to go super slowly
i fell asleep everywhere

i fell asleep on the train ride to school, even when i didn't want to, and ended up in a super unglam position with my head totally tilted all the way back and my mouth open
i fell asleep during lecture whilst writing
i fell asleep whilst waiting for class to start
i fell asleep during class discussion
i fell asleep on the train ride back home and missed my stop again
and i feel like falling asleep now when it's not even 2am yet (my usual sleeping time)

i think i actually can sleep more than normal people
like normal pple sleep less than 8 hours and i can sleep more than 12 hours
LOL half the day
i slept for the whole day before
and i woke up the next morning still feeling sleepy, but i was hungry, and wasting another day sleeping would be horrible so i forced myself to wake up
it's not like i do alot
or that i stay up late
or that i don't get enough sleep
i just like to sleep alot

maybe i should start exercising to gain more energy
or eat healthier

sleepy

weird

i was waiting for the train to go back home
and as the train was coming
i suddenly felt an urge to just take 2 steps forward
to find out how it will feel
imgs of me being hit, the feeling of my bones breaking
the reaction of the other passengers and the driver
it all flashed in my head
then i thought, "you would have to die to find out how it feels"

i fell asleep on the train
and halfway through
i suddenly woke up, and i forgot whether i was going to school or home
LOL
then i saw the direction the train is going
and remembered that i just went for lessons
so i fell back to sleep again

when i woke up, i had missed my stop

this is a weird journey back

one last pic

LOL
i suddenly saw this
and though i dun usually like jonghyun
this pic is just cute LOL their aegyo

and therefore i dedicate this to sharmin whom likes minho


and pple were saying that jonghyun hates s'pore
wells, you love some, you hate some
even i have moments where i hate s'pore
so i can't blame him
and besides
when they departed from s'pore the last time
the fans mobbed them as the barricades weren't up
and fans tried to grab them, inadvertently scratching them along the way
and they made my dear onew fall (what's more he had a sprained ankle when he came to s'pore, he might not have healed completely yet)
HOW COULD THEY !!!!!
AAAHHHHH
when i heard it my heart sank
seriously i just can't stand some fan girls
so jonghyun
hate s'pore all you want
just keep visiting us, that's all that matters to me coz Onew is all i care about
LOL

anyways i don't think he really hates s'pore
i think it's more likely that he's finds it too warm here

Onew

From this,

LOL

And these,

^will love this boy forever

To now

omg his adams apple is damn hot LOL

And this

this picture killed me

and it kills me everytime i use my phone

i will be a fan of him for as long as he needs one

LOL

he's really become a real hottie eh ?

from the young boy look till now

Monday no like Monday

today feels like it ain't the start of a new week

coz i've been "working hard" during the weekends

i didn't rest, and therefore there's no feeling of monday blues

SHINee's showcase was great and not so great at the same time

i was expecting more

coz they said it was gonna be for 1 hour

and coz mayday's supposed showcase/free concert was like the best

i was expecting more

HAHA

and it started raining when they came

so i was standing in the rain, holding my umbrella, staring at onew, and smiling like an idiot

LOL

and before that i was standing, with some other girls, on a ledge which i was not supposed to stand on

so onew kinda looked in our direction quite alot

LOL he must have took pity on us

standing in the rain

on an unstable ledge

or he must think we're crazy

but the security guard chased us down

but i still stood in the rain and coz it was just impossible to see them if i get in the crowd

but

they are hot as hell

onew

omg

he's been working out alot

can see

was just spending 95% of my time staring at him

1% on getting down the ledge

4% on the rest of the members when onew was outta my view

i tried taking photos

epic failure

this is the only pic that you can see anything

the others are like

masses of blur

LOL

and onew !!! there ! proof of him looking in our direction (my delusion)

and see the plant ? it's coz i was standing in a box with plants in them LOL

oh yeah and weishan told me today that i was using the wrong mode to take pics

i had accidentally switched it to landscape mode wtf

LOL epic failure

and they sang 3 songs

replay, jojo, than ringdingdong

just like in the s.e.a

sighs

onew

damn hot

oh yeah, and key looks great with his new hair,

and jonghyun looks better than expected,

and taemin omg he's really pretty and he looks WAY better than in any photos i've seen of him,

and minho, what can i say, tall, slim, model look

but Onew is the best of course

and of coz he flashed his signature smile to all the swooning fangirls

i think he's running on pure adrenalin

he looks tired, but hyper at the same time

sighs

though i didn't see him up close

i'm glad to be able to see him from afar

and he sings damn fine

esp during jojo omg damn hot

ok i shall stop obsessing

need to start work

term papers coming soon

hope they come again, and during spring break

so that i can go all out and queue up as early as the most "worthy" fangirls

LOL

or i hope that they can do a mini concert and sell the tics

not on sistic though

my internet not that fast

can sell at some mall

and i'd queue up damn early

hope hope hope

positive thoughts *om*

just woke up

from a very long nap
feel much better now
in fact am feeling anxious and excited and less negative abt the event tmr

HAHA
yar i really hope i can see them

i was just doing the calculations
for this one hour showcase they're gonna get $105000.
wow
it's really rather good moolah
that's why they should just bring more pple into s'pore
even though it's a small country
people are really willing to spend quite alot to meet them

ok
i think i need to go sleep again
need to go imm at 8am to queue up again -__-''
i really hope the venue is not as small as it looks

back frm imm

disclaimer : this is a negative post, might have been caused due to a lack of sleep. They're all just my personal views, i don't really want to fuck anyone (eww i'm straight ty) nor do i want anyone to die or suffer (but if they do, i'd not feel any worse off), so pls, if any random person actually reads this, if you bash me you're just a loser taking a cheap shot at people. and if you're reading this as my friend, you prolly know me enough to think whatever you wanna think of me. Thank You.


overall, queueing overnight turned out fine
some fans were taking down pple's names and queue numbers and checking that no one cuts queue throughout the night
it wasn't very warm
and i made friends with the pple around me
and i had quite a nice sleep on my mat
and they started selling the album on time

what i felt irritated came afterwards
when the few fans who were taking down the names b4 said that THEY don't want pple to stay overnight at IMM and therefore they say that we should all follow the queue number that we got

ok, i do appreciate that they tried to do something to regulate the event
and that if they didn't do what they did many pple would prolly start cutting queue/joining their friends
but seriously even w/o them it would have still worked
as there were less than 3k fans (which means no need to fight)
the barricades set up were already common sensical enought to follow
so seriously what they did was rather redundant

and the most impt thing is
who gave them the right to decide that we can't queue overnight till sunday ?
hurh
they say they dun want us to stay overnight
but what i think is the main reason is that they want to safeguard their queue position (top 10) as they're going for the s'pore awards show later in the evening
and they know that if they go for the event they won't be the top 10 in the queue to get into the showcase as there are pple (like me) who are not going for s.e.a, and who plan to queue there before the s.e.a ends
to get a better chance at actually seeing shinee during the showcase

and they even got some mother to explain
and she was like saying "you know the sacrifices that you have to make to follow your idols, and those pple who came to queue earlier and took the effort to help out were obviously sacrificing more and therefore are justified to be at the front in the event"
FUCK OFF MOTHERFUCKER
wtf i became pissed off hearing her drone on abt this issue when no one's listening
seriously the only ones who are happy abt this arrangement are those that are going for the s.e.a, or adam lambert event or having camp or those who're unwilling to queue for another night
BUT I WAS PLANNING TO DO THAT
omg
so i'm not a worthy fan ?
i cannot see them up close because i got school the other day, and i'm a responsible student for not missing school ?
and what about the others whose parents didn't allow them to queue overnight and therefore cld only come to buy the tic in the morning ?

yar of course, our parents don't support us, we have other responsibilities to fulfil, we have less money and resources to show our adoration to our idols makes us less worthy fans

and those whose parents even came over are worthier fans ?
those who queue up 2 days to buy the album are worthier fans ?

it's this sort of stupid thinking that makes me thank god that i'm a mature, rational, logical, all-rounded thinker
and not a myopic thinker who thinks that they are better then everyone

wtf i'm just irritated at myself for not queueing up earlier to get a better seat
maybe i should have just skipped school for 2 days to queue up for this, that would be a big sacrifice, i would be such a great fan -__-

i hope they die

ok that's mean

i hope they do not succeed in life
shit ruined my plans

i'm #503, 502 people are worthier fans than me, the others are less worthy then me wow i'm so proud

fuck i will not get to see them, the space is so small that 300 fans would basically block the whole view of the stage already much less 502, and the stage is friggin small

urgh
i hope i get to see onew at least
but i guess i might not be worthy enough
i'm just a loser you know

wish me luck

soon i'd be making my way down to IMM

aigoo
and the worst thing that could happen to me happened
my period came
AGAIN
zomg it just ended last week
and it's here again
my god
is it to compensate for the more than 3 mths that i didn't get it ?
shitass

i just hope that the one queueing behind and infront of me are nice peeps
so that i can go change pad
otherwise i dunno what to do
-___-""
but i'm not gonna give up
(:

and maybe it's coz of pms that i'm so irrational
HAHAHA but it feels good (:

preparation

was just thinking about what to prepare for both nights
and i suddenly thought
"what about brushing teeth ?"
omg
i dun want smelly breath
will brush before leaving and try not to consume anything that'll give me bad breath
omg it'll be my first time doing something like this
i don't know what to expect, i just hope i'd come out of this whole thing unscathed
i'm really scared of crazy fan girls and boys
the violence
O____O
i'm a very docile person k LOL
hope they'd see my face and not try to bully me
otherwise i'd go crazy

anyways
i didn't sleep last night
but i feel fine
hmmm
training for the overnight queueing
LOL

on another note
i can't wait for tmr to end, it's just too tiring
although it's the week after recess week in which i've rested alot
it feels like this week just added 10 yrs to my age
aigoo soon i'd be an 80 yr old granny



omg i just read the forum and someone said that there's people queueing at IMM already
that's just crazy
CRAZY !!!
I WANT TO SEE THEM SHIT

hmmm
i'm having abdomenal pains (like menstrual cramp)
but my period just ended little more than a week ago
wierd

mind made up

ok i've decided to queue overnight for the showcase
not buying a tic for the awards show is saddening enough
I WILL GET TO SEE THEM
i'm just scared that they'll not come back again
and if i have to be smelly and stinky so be it
everyone there will be too (considering how warm it is these few days)

and because of this distraction
i won't be able to sleep tonight as i'm stuck on the second paragraph of the essay

i'm going to type at the speed of light with no regards to what the hell i'm saying

good night

skipped lecture today

to try to start and finish my essay

but i've not typed a thing till now
fuck i was distracted T-T

omg i dun even know where to start
the question is so simple
but i dunno how the hell to start it

and the SHINee showcase, alot of pple at the forums are like saying if dun stay overnight won't be able to get a tic one

contemplating whether i should
AHH i hate this

ok i'm really tempted to queue overnight
really really tempted

regular day in school

it's really boring
and i've not started on any of my work
and i need to submit the essay this thursday morning
but i don't even feel like starting

this sem is weird
i feel extremely unmotivated to do any work
unlike the previous sem where i'd try to start
i'm not even trying this sem

sighs

and i've not started exercising shit

hope i can get to buy a place in SHINee's showcase

ok
i've officially wasted my whole recess break
wanted to exercise ... failed
wanted to catch up on readings ... failed
needed to do my 1 mid term take home test essay .. didn't even start
wanted to rest more ... Passed with flying colours

aigoo

i've planned what to do on saturday and sunday already
i refuse and am not able to queue up overnight at the fucking-far-from-my-home-place-called-IMM
and the earliest train on saturday is 0552
so if i take that train i'd reach at about 0730
ok fuck that's damn late, if there's more than 3000 pple than i'd go home and cry
if there's less than i'd faster line up and buy the album :D
then the next day
the first train is 0612 which means i'd reach at around 0800
and then if there are not many pple i'd smile and feel happy whilst looking at glimpses of their foreheads whilst they sing
and if there're loads of pple there already i'd cry and go there and see the top of pple's head whilst they sing

basically i'm remaining rather pessimistic as i'm not gonna queue up overnight which automatically means my view's gonna suck like shit coz there are tons of crazy shinee fangirls who'll start to queue up from 11pm the previous day
but i just refuse to be some smelly and sticky shit whilst being so close to those lovely people

sighs ((:

ZOMG

SHINee will be having a showcase on 14th March at IMM !!!
for first 3000 who buys their album ($35) on 13th March at the same place
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
planning what to do already

should i go ? should i not go ...
it's gonna be a 1 hr affair where they sing and dance and talk a little
and $35 for 1hr where i might not even get to see their foreheads LOL
omg
not like it really matters right ?
but then it might matter ...
and why the hell must it be in the west again ??? wtf it's not like they're living in a hotel in the west rite (west got what hotel pls wtf) why can't they have it at central area ? then fair for everyone omg shitassamajig AH
gosh distracted

it might suffice to just watch fancams on youtube later on right ?
but then
urgh ):

i just woke up

that's why i love recess week
i can sleep and wake up at whatever time i want

((:

shall read something today

random

Vespa is Love

So are these two, especially the one on the left (:

today doesn't feel like a monday

it feels like a weekend

wierd

it's march already

it doesn't feel so late

exams are in april

i need to start studying

and i shall stop obsessing soon

even though they're cute as hell

i do not think it's worth it to put in so much time/money into them

Onew

i just need to get over this longing

lol